Dear God... I'm reaching out
I need some answers
Ayo

Smoke away my pain and I hope one day that I'll find my closure
Looking in the mirror I hate that person when I'm sober
Same sad song on repeat, like when will this be over?
Toss and turn I can't get to sleep, now my nights feel even colder

Yeah... Fighting with the undertow I'm tired of swimming
I overcame some obstacles but yet I'm far from winning
And please don't talk to me with that tone when it's condescending
It went from raining to it's pouring, now it's fucking hailing
Lord, I'm a sinner, please forgive me, 'cause I'm stressing daily
I'm feeling guilty 'cause I do not spend much time with family
I'm 28 but yet there's still no one that understands me
I sit alone in darkness, lost for words as I am panting
I still got some trauma, haven't fully healed from it
Repeated actions got my mind thinking Ima plummet
Wonder if I'll reach my full potential I've been doubting
Must be time to switch it up, change up my surroundings

Smoke away my pain and I hope one day that I'll find my closure
Looking in the mirror I hate that person when I'm sober
Same sad song on repeat, like when will this be over?
Toss and turn I can't get to sleep, now my nights feel even colder

My last relationship, it made me question who I am
Only toxic woman I'm attracting, there's a sign
So unhealthy constant tension, need a better plan
I should be single till I'm feeling truly whole inside
Look in my eyes! It's a horror story, can't describe it
I'm going through the motions everyday on autopilot
Maybe see a therapist so I can talk about it
Instead of being so delusional and not acknowledge
Anxiety has got me on the edge, can hardly breathe
I don't wanna die before I leave a legacy
I'm hoping that my momma truly fucking proud of me
And I can flourish as a person with sobriety

Smoke away my pain and I hope one day that I'll find my closure
Looking in the mirror I hate that person when I'm sober
Same sad song on repeat, like when will this be over?
Toss and turn I can't get to sleep, now my nights feel even colder