Dear Lord, can you show me the way?
I'm feeling pessimistic and losing my faith
Every single night I lay in bed and I pray
Keep repeating my actions yet expecting a change
So toxic, think I needa get a grip quick
Demolish, take control the cards I'm dealt
Stop stalling, saying that I'm okay way too often
Nothing but a lie, I'm obnoxious
I don't need a handout, I don't want endorsements
You can save your two cents, I will never forfeit
Just sit back, let life take its course and
I've been riding solo, sorta like an orphan
Dopamine check for a minute won't last
Overthinking everything dwelling on my past
Sitting on the fence and dealing with resentment
Alter Ego taking over, I don't want that
Where you gonna turn when nothing else matters?
How you suppose to love when your heart so shattered?
Success leaves clues I should probably try to fathom
Instead of falling right back in the same patterns
I was traumatized, PTSD
Gimme time to myself cause I really can't breathe
Still I keep my head high, used to be naive
Let fear hold you back then a victim you'll be
They don't see the nightmares, they don't hear the screams
Gotta get up out this hole down thirty feet deep
So close to the edge giving every ounce left
I've been trapped in a prison but I'm holding them keys
Damn... Ironic now, isn't it?
Cynicism all around make better friends
Take your mind on a trip like a Molly binge
Don't comply with the script it is evident

But I've been on my way up if I fall
It's a long way down, oh oh
Maybe It's unfortunate that I'm lost
Where did I go wrong?
Fucking me up mentally and I can't find my sanity
Balance out the lows, I'm getting high another frequency
People love to turn you so cold
I'm better on my own

Getting comfortable where I stand
Gotta take a leap of faith God damn
Literally I'm drifting, why am I so distant?
Pushing you away wasn't part of the plan
Regrets, regrets creepin' up instantly
Intense, what's next, searching for some inner peace
Demons lurking, will not get away from me
My fault, my fault, draining all my energy
Taking pride in what I do but I'm slacking
Think by now that you'd probably learn your lesson, Greg?
Don't ever question my ability or passion
These voices I can never really tame
Should turn the page but I'm stuck on the same chapter
Oh Lord, please wash away my sins
So distracted on the wrong path and
You don't really wanna know where I've been
Ever feel like nobody understands you?
Ever feel like you really wanna runaway?
Something missing in your life, can't stand who
You've become, so you'd rather just hide the pain
Self loathing in doubt
Grab the blade, contemplate, then I blackout
Sitting on the floor still trying to absorb
Pleasing everybody else how I lost myself, that's real!

But I've been on my way up if I fall
It's a long way down, oh oh
Maybe It's unfortunate that I'm lost
Where did I go wrong?
Fucking me up mentally and I can't find my sanity
Balance out the lows, I'm getting high another frequency
People love to turn you so cold
I'm better on my own