I know I let you down
I swear I'm sorry for that shit
I'm sorry that I fucked around
I never cared about that bitch
I was focused on the wrong things
Slowly felt my heart sink
Carving out your name upon my flesh
You hear my heartbeat
Racing like a car meet
Chasing you in my dreams
Running for your love fucked up on drugs memories haunt me
Daunting moments in my head
They never end what do I do
Longing for some peace of mind
I can't take this impending doom

No
I can't take this impending doom
My brain is an abyss
I think my heart would like to rent a room
Wish I could restart
And take apart the broken parts within
Tryna' sow my scars with poems and art
As I confess my sins

If there's a god I wonder what he thinks
Puking in the sink from popping pills
With all these whiskey drinks
Hidden screams echo inside my head
It's hard to shut them out
This kerosene might rescue me from dread
That eats me inside out

This cloud
It towers over me eclipses light
Slowly it devours faith until
There is no hope in sight
Don't wanna' die I wanna' live
I wanna' make this last
Wish to proceed in life
But I'm so caught up in the past