Yea...
I pray to god like every night before I fall asleep
I never thought that I would find my self this lost and weak
I know that talk is cheap I'm tryna prove how much I've changed
These demons haunting me that's why my hearts in constant angst
Yea, I'm trying to paint the horrors in my mind
I can't explain this awful pain that leaves me walking blind
I'm not denyin' my flaws I know I've caused so many tears
Was tryna hide it all by poppin' pills to mask my fears
Oh, o what a lie yo look what I have done
O who am I these suicidal thoughts got me out runned
Load the gun cock it and pack in thy contemplate
Will the sun rise tomorrow will I be saved
Yea, I swear these days feel like they never end
I'm heaven sent so I refuse to let the devil in
Been meddling with drugs and alcohol to drift away
Back peddling on my beliefs I feel so damn ashamed
I know I failed you and I'm truly sorry
I know I fell through this depression mentally it scarred me
But still I'm marching through the trenches got my faith in god
I know he's watching every second just in case I fall
No, I can't win this war alone
I know I need your love I need your strength to bring me home
My weakened bones they are renewed within your word my bleeding soul will heal
I know you'll save me from the hurt, dear god