The day you died I lost all hope
I felt like I was drowning and I want you to know
I felt your pain, the blame you felt
You raised a fragile teen that really needed your help

Don't you tell me that you love me if you're leaving that's so fucked
You can't raise me then discard me fall asleep and not wake up
I've been working on myself and I don't know if I can change
Am I really who I think I am I guess I'm just the same

I don't blame you
But you're all that I had
Now I can't save you
There's no way you will be back
And I don't hate you
But I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here
I wouldn't cry or be sad

I don't blame you
But you're all that I had
Now I can't save you
There's no way you will be back
And I don't hate you
But I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here
I wouldn't cry or be sad

I knew that it wouldn't matter
If I could do all of the things that you wanted
I got what I needed, I made you a promise
I trusted your words but you couldn't stay honest
I called up my friends but I'm more of a check
They never recall and they leave me on read
I needed help. Fuck what you said
I need a drink now or I am dead

This isn't sunshine, this is real life
It's not butterflies when your mom dies
And you wake up to the same site
Your bed frame, the same size
I don't blame you
You can't save me
I hate feeling low
But you made me
And I fucked off
And you lost touch
And when life left
I kept breaking like

I don't blame you
But you're all that I had
Now I can't save you
There's no way you will be back
And I don't hate you
But I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here
I wouldn't cry or be sad

I don't blame you
But you're all that I had
Now I can't save you
There's no way you will be back
And I don't hate you
But I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here
I wouldn't cry or be sad