Everything I didn't want to be I've become
Everything I didn't want to lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I've never had one
Playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun
And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?

It's a mixture of all the drugs
And a mind I've been cursed with, it never shuts up
And all the edges I'm pushed to while tryna climb up
And that look that you give me each time I give up
I wish I could go back and do it all again
But the way that I work, I'd just fuck up again
I don't know what I'm doing
Stop asking my reason for why I keep choosing to be my own demon

Everything I didn't want to be I've become
Everything I didn't want to lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I've never had one
Playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun
And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?

And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?