I don't wanna go back to the feeling
I was in dark space
I count my blessings every day
That I was chosen for this fate

Just know the vengeance that you seek will never lead you to contentment
The worst life you can live is one that's so filled with resentment
Once you give into that pain that's when the darkness makes its entrance
Three people killed themselves before I even stop this sentence
I know queens who use a blade to cut their skin and feel alive and
These standard that we put on you, I beg you to defy them
Maybe you'd feel pretty if you could see you with my eyes and
These ladies might be gorgeous, I won't let you objectify them
I know kids that hit me up and they've been planning their own death
I told 'em life's a movie, one that's just not finished yet
It's only been ten minutes, sit back down and take a breath
You already bought the ticket, let's just see what happens next
I know people can be cruel, they start lashing out, I get it
But you can't take back words, it's too late, you already said it
'Cause spreading hate hurts you the most, your victims barely sweat it, Matt
I'm worried 'bout your mental health, I'm scared for where you're heading

I don't wanna go back to the feeling
I was in dark space
I count my blessings every day
That I was chosen for this fate

It's hard to keep my head on during this controversial
Time of isolation, falling out of social circles
Spiral outta control, comparing myself to idols
Push the ones I love away and turn 'em into rivals
For a moment I meditate and I catch a breath
Feel the present forget about what is coming next
I remember I'm human and what's inside my chest
May be beating now but I know it doesn't do well with stress
I know you're hurting, question if you can take the burden
I see you screaming underwater and praying they heard it
You wanna ask for help but judgment is making you nervous
That's a type of validation you can never purchase
Know this feeling all too well but I would never tell
My state of mind was paralyzed inside a broken cell
Just window shopping and wishing that I was someone else
Just to recognize the only way out was to love myself

I don't wanna go back to the feeling
I was in dark space
I count my blessings every day
That I was chosen for this fate
I don't wanna go back to the feeling
I was in dark space
I count my blessings every day
That I was chosen for this fate

I don't wanna go back to the feeling
I was in dark space